The Carousel Painter

  JUDITH MILLER

  The Carousel Painter

  Copyright © 2009

  Judith Miller

  Cover design by Jennifer Parker.

  Cover photograph of carousel horse by Mary Harrsch © 2006.

  Cover model photography by Mike Habermann.

  Scripture quotations are from the King James Version of the Bible.

  All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise—without the prior written permission of the publisher. The only exception is brief quotations in printed reviews.

  Published by Bethany House Publishers

  11400 Hampshire Avenue South

  Bloomington, Minnesota 55438

  Bethany House Publishers is a division of

  Baker Publishing Group, Grand Rapids, Michigan.

  E-book edition created 2010

  ISBN 978-1-4412-0476-9

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  Congress, Washington, DC.

  DEDICATED TO

  My son, Justin . . .

  for the determination

  to achieve your dreams.

  Contents

  CHAPTER 1

  CHAPTER 2

  CHAPTER 3

  CHAPTER 4

  CHAPTER 5

  CHAPTER 6

  CHAPTER 7

  CHAPTER 8

  CHAPTER 9

  CHAPTER 10

  CHAPTER 11

  CHAPTER 12

  CHAPTER 13

  CHAPTER 14

  CHAPTER 15

  CHAPTER 16

  CHAPTER 17

  CHAPTER 18

  CHAPTER 19

  CHAPTER 20

  CHAPTER 21

  CHAPTER 22

  CHAPTER 23

  CHAPTER 24

  CHAPTER 25

  CHAPTER 26

  CHAPTER 27

  CHAPTER 28

  CHAPTER 29

  CHAPTER 30

  CHAPTER 31

  THANKS TO . . .

  CHAPTER

  1

  April 10, 1890

  Collinsford, Ohio

  I perched on the edge of the brocade settee while Mrs. Galloway stared at me as though she’d discovered some new species of life. A curious look. One that made me feel as though I needed to check my appearance in the hallway mirror. Had the identity of Carrington Leigh Brouwer completely vanished on the journey from France? Possibly I’d sprouted horns. I considered touching my head to ensure that my suspicions were incorrect, for I’d never felt so uncomfortable in my life.

  The very thought of stubby protrusions poking out from beneath my unfashionable straw hat caused me to force back a giggle—my compulsive reaction to unpleasant situations. I’d giggled at my mother’s funeral when I was ten years old. Last month I’d done the same thing when they placed my father in his grave. I’ve been told it’s a survival behavior used by many children. But at twenty-one years of age, I was no longer a child, and I doubted such conduct would endear me to this dour-faced woman. Then again, I wasn’t certain there was anything that would please Mrs. Galloway. Her lips appeared to be permanently fixed in an upside-down U.

  She rang a small brass bell that brought a servant scurrying into the room. The maid didn’t look much older than me or any more pleasant than Mrs. Galloway.

  “We’ll need tea, Frances. And tell Thomas I need to speak with him.”

  The girl mumbled before turning on her heel.

  Mrs. Galloway’s thin eyebrows dipped into a scowl. “Good help is impossible to find nowadays. Did you find the same to be true in Paris, Miss Brouwer?”

  I forced myself to smile at the woman. “Please call me Carrington— or Carrie, if you prefer.”

  “A family name, I assume?”

  “No, from a book my mother read.”

  Her look of expectancy vanished, and her thin lips tightened into a knot. She must have toyed with the notion that I had descended from people of wealth and distinction. I coughed to hold back a giggle that had risen to the back of my throat. Mrs. Galloway would be horrified to discover how little I knew about my ancestors. And what I did know would make her hair stand on end.

  “Well, someone should have mentioned to your mother that Carrington sounds like a boy’s name.”

  Mrs. Galloway’s abrupt comment put a halt to my meandering thoughts. I considered telling her my name was quite acceptable for a girl, but before I could respond, a gray-haired man wearing dirty work pants and a frayed shirt appeared in the doorway. It was probably good that the workman’s appearance squelched my reply. Otherwise, Mrs. Galloway would think me impudent as well as a descendant of questionable ancestry.

  The spry-looking man swiped his palms on his denim trousers. “Frances said you wanted to see me. I was out in the—”

  Mrs. Galloway waved the man into an abrupt silence. I assumed he must be Thomas.

  The older woman’s frown deepened, and she pointed toward the front of the house. “Go out and get those trunks off the front porch and take them upstairs to the spare bedroom. There isn’t enough space in the bedroom for that crate. You’ll have to put it elsewhere.”

  “I can put it in the gardening shed if you like. Should be enough room in there.”

  “No!” I shouted the response without thinking. Now they were both staring at me as though I’d grown horns. “Wh-what I mean is,” I stammered, “that crate contains my paintings. My father’s canvases.” I waited, but neither of them appeared to understand. “I need to keep the crate indoors—with me—out of the weather.”

  “Well, it won’t fit in the bedroom, and I can’t set it in the middle of the parlor, now can I?”

  I momentarily considered telling the woman the parlor would do just fine, but such a remark would probably land both the crate and me in the gardening shed. Why hadn’t Augusta explained to her mother that I would be arriving with a crate that contained a few of my father’s paintings? Mrs. Galloway was gaping at me as though she expected some sort of response.

  “If you could place them somewhere in the house, just until I can make other arrangements, I would be most grateful.”

  “Well, there’s simply nowhere that I can think of,” she said as Frances walked into the room carrying a tea tray. “Oh, I know. Push the crate into that space under the stairs, Thomas.”

  “But that’s where I keep my belongings,” Frances said.

  Thomas glanced at Frances and nodded. I supposed it was common for servants to lend support to one another, but since we’d never had servants, I couldn’t be sure. One thing was certain: I’d made no friends since arriving at the white frame house on Marigold Street.

  Mrs. Galloway’s glare stalled any further objection. “Under the staircase, Thomas.”

  Frances shot an angry look in my direction that nudged me to action. I didn’t want the paintings shoved into the gardening shed, but intruding on the maid’s storage space wasn’t fair, either. “Surely there must be some other . . .”

  Mrs. Galloway raised her hand, closed her eyes, pursed her lips, and gave a slight shake of her head. In that moment I decided Mrs. Galloway had a bit of a dramatic flair hidden beneath her ever-present frown.

  “I’ll hear no more,” she announced. “The crate will be stored beneath the stairs until other arrangements can be made. For your sake, Frances, we’ll hope that is soon.”

  I thought Mrs. Galloway hoped it would be soon for her own sake, as well. Except for ordering tea, she’d done nothing to make me feel welcome. “When do you think Augusta will return?” I inquired once the servants had disappeared.

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bsp; “She’s off shopping for a new pair of shoes, so there’s no telling. However, I do hope it will be soon. I have a Ladies Aid meeting in an hour. As I recall, your letter said you wouldn’t arrive until tomorrow or the next day.”

  I had already apologized for my unexpected appearance at her home. Didn’t Mrs. Galloway realize I’d had no control over the ship’s early arrival in port? To me, it had made good sense to catch the first available train to Ohio rather than to rent a room in New York City. To Mrs. Galloway, my early appearance had created an unwelcome interruption. I didn’t want to explain that my decision had been based upon the necessity of keeping my expenses to a minimum. Passage on the Gloriana had eaten up most of my scanty funds. Other than the few coins that remained in my reticule and my father’s crated paintings, I’d been cast adrift without financial resources. Not that my father’s paintings could be considered a financial resource.

  Like his contemporaries, my father had occasionally sold a painting or two, but it had been art students like Augusta who had provided the bulk of his income. Even with his teaching, there had been more times than not when the rent had been paid late and the food meager. Augusta had been Papa’s most recent student, and she’d left Paris months ago.

  Mrs. Galloway folded her hands in her lap and rolled her lips into a tight seam. Other than offering to catch the next train out of town, I wasn’t certain anything I said would please her. I truly hoped she would attend her Ladies Aid meeting. I’d be much more comfortable outside of her presence but dared not say so. “Augusta missed you dreadfully while she was in Paris,” I tried, flashing a smile. “But I’m confident you already know that.”

  Mrs. Galloway’s dour expression evaporated for a moment. “And it seems she missed you as soon as she returned to Ohio. I must say I was shocked when Augusta told me of your plans to come for a visit.” Her smile was as weak as the tea she poured into my cup. “I was dismayed that she would send such an invitation without first requesting permission. I do believe my daughter forgot all proper etiquette and good manners while living in France.”

  There was now no doubt Mrs. Galloway was unhappy to have me as a houseguest. I didn’t know how to respond. Besides, I felt as though a wad of cotton had taken up residence in my mouth. I swallowed a sip of tea and hoped it would help. It didn’t.

  The older woman stirred a spoonful of cream into the pale brew. “How long do you plan to remain in Ohio, Miss Brouwer?” Little finger in the air, she lifted the cup to her lips and took a sip.

  “Forever, I suppose.”

  Mrs. Galloway sputtered and then coughed. I wasn’t sure if I should slap her on the back or relieve her of the teacup before the warm liquid spilled onto her silk gown. Since Mrs. Galloway didn’t appear to be a woman who would appreciate a slap on the back—at least not by me—I decided upon the teacup.

  She removed a lace-edged handkerchief from her sleeve. After one final cough, she dabbed her eyes. “I believe I didn’t hear you correctly. I thought you said forever.”

  I bobbed my head, but then I noted the look of alarm in her eyes.

  “But not here, of course. I plan to find work and move out on my own as soon as possible.”

  “Work? Move out on your own? Young ladies of good reputation do not live alone, Miss Brouwer. And what type of work would you perform? When Augusta told us you would be arriving for a stay, I assumed you had family somewhere in this country.”

  I wanted to throttle Augusta. She’d not told her parents about my circumstances. I cleared my throat and laced my fingers together in prayerlike fashion. “My apologies, Mrs. Galloway. I assumed Augusta had told you that I am without any relatives. My father was a talented artist, but he left me with nothing more than two paintings and enough money for my passage to America.”

  There! I’d said it. The truth was out.

  Mrs. Galloway picked up her fan and flapped it back and forth with a vengeance. Wisps of her mousy brown hair rose and fell in the artificial breeze. She sucked in her narrow cheeks and suddenly she resembled a prune—a prune with flyaway brown hair. I swallowed a giggle. I must remain calm. I must remain calm. I repeated the words in my head while Mrs. Galloway continued to fan herself.

  When the hour chimed in the distance, the fanning ceased and Mrs. Galloway jumped to her feet. “If you’ll excuse me, I must go upstairs. I’ll be late if I remain . . . any . . . longer.” Her sentence ran down like a clock that needed winding.

  “Oui, I’ll finish my tea and relax until Augusta returns.” Mrs. Galloway’s wrinkled brow served to remind me I was no longer in Paris. “I mean, yes, I’ll finish my tea.” I sighed as Mrs. Galloway and her frown disappeared up the steps.

  Leaning back, I crossed my ankles and took in my surroundings. Mrs. Galloway had obviously done her best to keep pace with the latest décor. Every flat surface in the room had been covered with vases, figurines, silver-framed pictures, candlesticks, or potted ferns. Several small tables were draped with fringed or lace-edged cloths and topped with porcelain jardinières and multicolored glass-shaded lamps. The room was far too crowded for my liking, but who was I to judge? I was accustomed to the sparse furnishings in the loft above a small French bakery.

  Hoping to discover a more comfortable position, I wriggled into the cushions but met with little success. The divan felt as though it had been stuffed with bricks. One look at the chairs positioned near the front window and I decided it was time for a change of seats. They appeared much more inviting. I’d have a view of the front porch and could see Augusta when she arrived.

  The ring of a bell drifted from upstairs and was soon followed by muffled footsteps racing down the hallway. Mrs. Galloway had likely summoned Frances to help her dress. What must it be like to ring a bell and have someone run to do your bidding? I couldn’t imagine. I couldn’t even picture what it would have been like had my mother lived longer, or how it would have felt to have a father answer my questions or shower me with affection.

  A carriage slowed in the street, and I bent forward, hoping it would stop and Augusta would appear, but the buggy continued onward. Leaning back against the cushion, I revisited memories of my own dear mother. Mama had always made me feel special, but since her death, I’d experienced an aching loneliness—a need to belong and feel a part of something other than myself. Papa had tried his best, but it was art that had consumed his every thought. He’d loved me in his own way, of course, but I always believed I was an inconvenience in his world. I interrupted his creativity with my requests to walk in the park or play a game of checkers.

  I’d written to tell Augusta of his death, and then her letter had come with an invitation to become a part of the Galloway family. In truth, the letter hadn’t exactly suggested a branch on the Galloway family tree, but Augusta had offered a place to stay for as long as needed. To me, that was almost the same thing. I had longed to return to America for many years, having been gone for ten.

  The very thought that I might become part of her family had provided me with ample reason to accept. My experience thus far was quite different from what I’d anticipated. I could only hope matters would improve.

  CHAPTER

  2

  Carrie!”

  I awakened with a jolt, not knowing where I was. It took only one look at Augusta to settle my mind. I jumped out of my chair; at least I tried. My right leg remained asleep, and jagged pinpricks raced through the extremity. I hobbled the short distance that remained between the two of us and enjoyed the warmth of Augusta’s embrace—and the fact that she had enough strength to hold on to me until my leg would cooperate and carry my weight.

  She leaned back. “It is so good to see you.” She gave my arm another gentle squeeze and took a backward step. “I see you’ve maintained your lovely figure.”

  I didn’t tell her it was difficult to gain weight when there wasn’t much money for food. Instead, I said, “And it appears you’ve dropped several dress sizes since leaving France. Let me take a look at you.”

/>   Arms extended, she swirled in a giant circle. Her thick auburn hair had been pulled back in a severe coiffure that accentuated her angular features. She completed a final turn and pressed her palms to her waist. “Giving up those rich French pastries has helped. I think my dress size is even smaller than yours.”

  The belief seemed to please Augusta, and I certainly couldn’t argue the point. There was no doubt her waist was at least an inch or two smaller than my own. “And you’ve fashioned your hair in a different style,” I said.

  She touched her fingers to one side of her head. “Do you like it? Mother says it’s becoming, but I’m unsure.”

  I shook my head. “I prefer a few curls around your face. This makes you look far older than your nineteen years.”

  “And it gives my face a horsey appearance, doesn’t it?” She turned sideways to show me her profile and pointed to her raw-boned features. “Don’t dare try to deny it.” She hurried to the mirror across the room and loosened several wispy curls, permitting them to encircle her face before returning for my response.

  I gave a firm nod. “Much more appealing.”

  She wrinkled her nose in impish fashion. “If I possessed your delicate features and gorgeous blue eyes, I wouldn’t have to worry about hiding my face.”

  We’d had this discussion on many occasions when Augusta lived in France. Much to my discomfort, she had constantly compared her appearance to my own. She’d coveted everything from my blue eyes and finely arched brows to the golden highlights in my brown hair. Even more disturbing, she’d considered my upturned nose my most beautiful feature. Strange, because I’d always considered it far too small for my oval face.

  “I can see I’ve made you uncomfortable. I’ll do my best to avoid such talk in the future.” She squeezed my hand. “I’m delighted you were able to arrive earlier than expected.” Her gaze lingered on my hat, and I didn’t fail to note the twitch in her lips.

  A quick look in the hallway mirror reflected the reason for her amusement. My straw skimmer had tipped askew during my impromptu nap. I did my best to push it into place, but the attempt only caused several hairpins to drop to the floor. I unpinned the hat and lifted it from my head, which proved another mistake. Several unmanageable curls escaped and cascaded across my forehead. “I’m a mess.”